[Nelly63] Be a Buddy Not a Bully comic porn

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I know I should go to therapy, but I haven’t because it’s really hard for me to let anyone know I have problems. I’ve told no-one except you know. I almost never show others that I’m sad, anxious, or scared. In public situations, I exaggerate my positive emotions not to stand out, I suppress my negative emotions and always smile and look energetic when in a room with someone. I’ve self-harmed, I’ve cut my wrist open, I got too many cuts to count on my thighs, I never go to swim without making sure there are no clear visible scars, which is very rare even then, so no-one would know I’m depressed, have anxiety and probably ASPD or something like that. Immediately after leaving a social situation or stopping talking to someone, my expression goes to neutral and I stop laughing.

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I wanna kill myself rn, probably not gonna do it since I fear that I might be alive after that and everyone would know that my mind is fucked up. Did you know that jumping from 40m head down is almost guaranteed death? A gun would be an easy death if shot at the back of my head through the spinal cord and brain stem or through my chin to my brain, near instant death! I don’t have access to guns though, too hard to get permission here. Poisons would be a fast way too, but what if the supplier is an undercover cop, provides fake product or something like that? Jumping into a stream near me would be a good option too, not very painful and there’s a 50m high bridge going over it, but it’s in an urban area with lots of people around all the time.

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Oh, and once after an argument with my brother, I knew I was wrong from the start and he wasn’t mean about it or anything, he went down the stairs, I was right behind him, could have pushed him over and down the stairs. Sharp, rocky edges would have likely caused severe injuries and maybe even killed him. I wanted to do it, I really wanted to. My brother is one of the few people in my life that actually mean

Dude- any way I can help you? Please don’t hurt yourself any more than you have, you might be fucked up but that doesn’t mean you should do it. Please- please! Get someone to help you, you can make it through, I promise!

Bro wrote an esay on a rape comic on a porn comic website. I mean i gota respect that